No BS With Bukowski Mailbag: Regrets, Future Love, Anxiety, Jorts

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Finally, ‘Bachelor in Paradise’ is in the rear-view mirror. Even though I did not watch, I want to extend congratulations to Jade and Tanner for their engagement. I didn’t get to know them too well, but they were extremely nice people to be around.

Last week, after appearing on ‘Bachelor in Paradise,’ I officially retired from reality television. I now know I made the right decision and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I’ve received plenty of positive messages of support and I am extremely grateful for every single one of them. Additionally, I have received some great questions and I’ve answered a handful of them below.

Q: “What is one thing you (most) regret doing?” — Jessica

A: I typically hate saying that I “regret” doing something because at the time there was a reason for the action. Out of all the crazy things you’ve witnessed me do over the past three years, the one ‘Bachelor’-related thing I would take back would be showing up on night one of Andi’s season. It baffles me how I convinced myself that showing up would “fix” everything, when it ultimately made things worse. Prior to that episode airing, I was planning a move from Washington D.C. to Chicago. I decided to drive back to Chicago the night of the airing so I would be unable to watch it. I honestly couldn’t wait for that night to end.

Q: “Your letter was an amazing read. Do you still believe that love is out there for you and that you will find it eventually?” — Missy H.

A: I absolutely do and if I don’t find it, I hope it finds me. I’m convinced that the best thing a person can experience in their life is falling in love. What better feeling is there than loving someone and being loved back? I’m positive there is nothing better. I have friends who tell me they never want to get married and they don’t care about falling in love, but I think it’s those people who deep down want it the most. Life is good, but life with someone else is definitely better. One day…one day.


Q: “How are you fighting your anxiety?” — Ashley

A: This is a fantastic question! I think many don’t understand what anxiety actually is. People will say to me, “What are you so anxious about?” Well, the misunderstanding happens when these people don’t realize you can have anxiety even when everything is seemingly perfect. Hell, I wish there was something that I could pinpoint as the catalyst of my anxiety issues, but it just doesn’t work that way. 0

My first encounter with a panic attack came during my freshman year of college when I made the move from Chicago to Las Vegas. I remember coming home for Christmas break and waking up in the middle of the night unable to catch my breath. I went to my parents’ room and woke my dad because I didn’t know what was going on. We eventually went to the ER as I was at a point where there was literally no way to calm me down. It has been 10 years since then and I’ve learned how to deal with my anxiety in different ways. The best way is to talk about it rather than feeling embarrassed of it.

I have plenty more to say about anxiety and I’ll save the rest for another post.

Q: “Jorts: Summer must or bust?” — Tommy

A: Tommy, depending on your geographical location, bust. I hope you’re not rocking jorts, brother. If you are, I’m glad summer is coming to an end.

My favorite comment this week came from Tammy: “I’m happy for you, the start of being happy with someone is being happy alone first.” I could not agree more and I hope everyone realizes that as well. 0

I have many more questions to touch on that I will get to during the coming weeks. Once again, I really appreciate all of your positive comments and I truly enjoy answering your questions. I must say, the “retired life” is good!



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Be sure to check back next week for more of Chris’ answers right here on RantNOW.

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